imnotwhatiseem

Stacy's flight is suppose to get in tonight. I'm so excited! I can't even explain how excited I've been other than I've been having dreams about her coming home. It'll be great to have my best friend in the same country as me. Even if it is only temporary. It just makes me treasure the time we do get together. Plus, she's following her dreams so it's pretty cool to see her doing that. Okay, so I'm going to amazed for awhile because it won't let me change my mood.

I gave up on you a long time ago How can you blame me? We made plans to meet and you never showed You kept me waiting They said everything would work out just fine They said you'd help me But as it turns out it was all a lie And they're off someplace far away laughing at me You've been there for me one time in my life But it didn't matter You came and went so fast all my hope And faith in you shattered And now here I sit alone in this room No one to confide in You watched all my dreams come apart at the seams You laughed, you left, you waited in hiding Bless me dark father I have sinned I've done it before and I'll do it agai

I hate you with all of my being. You will never amount to anything. You will never be happy. You will never be content. And that is what let's me just let shit like this roll off my shoulders. Yes, that's right, I get satisfaction out of your misery. If that makes me a bad person, then so be it. But I know that if you were to list all the "bad stuff" I've done or said and listed all of yours, my list would come out a lot shorter and a lot less shocking and disturbing. I'm taking this as my "freebie". So do me a favor and stay the fuck out of my life and stop stalking me just to personally attack me. In other words, get a fucking life and le